Back & forth

Sometimes I wish I knew how to travel in time. Certain things seem so right at the moment but when you have the time to look back and think....there are soo many options. Each leading to a different road that will change every aspect of your future life. Where would i be right now if i had never befriended that one person, what kind of person would i be today? where would i be if i hadnt fucked up my education this past year? what if i just decided to get up that one day and not waste my life and pity myself because that felt like the most appeasing thing to do.
I just wish i could go back and fix a few things, make a few more productive choices, But i guess it wouldn't be growing up if i didnt make mistakes.
What if i could just go back in time and relive my past with all the knowledge and maturity i have now. who knows where i'd be, how many people would love me, how many people would hate me.

I want to surround myself with people who won't make my life a living hell. People i can singalong with in cars, make stupid jokes with, make up stupid songs with, to watch me spin in chairs and tell me im a freak, to paint with, to take pictures with, to drive around aimlessly with, to discover new things with, to learn life lessons with. People who don't act like they are a child, who don't judge me on the odd things i do, people who don't think they are better than everyone else, people who don't have chips on their shoulders. I want to be surrounded with people who make me question myself, people who push me to do things i would never think about doing.

Where are you people?