So I've done a lot of growing up in the past year. I've done things I used to only imagine of doing. I've changed my views, accepted new ones, lost friends, made friends, stayed in a room for three months while I tried to escape reality. I had my "first love," if that's what you'd call it and I had my first heartbreak. I would be overjoyed to say that I was completely over the boy who at once made me believe I could do anything . But honestly, I'm not. A string of hope for the past six months has kept me going, or has it been stopping me? I really don't know. And I honestly don't care. My downfall was being too naive... Supposedly. maybe it's still my downfall, but I feel like some people aren't going to stack up to that. I want so bad to hate but only because I want to love? BLAH BLAH. It makes no sense. It's one big contradiction. My life is full of contradictions. What can I do? How about nothing like I have been... where will that get me?
I'm about to start my life. Or travel down the road that will shape it. I used to be more cautious and aware, but now it seems as if I'm literally just livin'. Take some risks, make some mistakes, learn something, well i can live without a few mistakes but that's not my point. My point is that i'm not holding back anymore. I'm going where I want to be and I'd like to see someone stop me, give it a whirl.
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